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Squats and Margaritas: The Journey Continues


On a recent episode of my ๐™Ž๐™ฆ๐™ช๐™–๐™ฉ๐™จ ๐™–๐™ฃ๐™™ ๐™ˆ๐™–๐™ง๐™œ๐™–๐™ง๐™ž๐™ฉ๐™–๐™จ podcast, I discussed my decade-long struggle with eating disorders and how I finally โ€œhealedโ€ from them (listen here).


I was enlightened to learn from Rebecca Eyre, CEO of Project Heal, that Iโ€™m not as โ€œhealedโ€ as I thought I was. While I may no longer practice the abusive behaviors that were destroying my body (#bulimia #anorexia #exercisebulimia), my ๐™ข๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™™ hasnโ€™t healed.


I live my life with balance to maintain my weight. I own that. I lift heavy to keep my metabolism running more efficiently, I practice mindful eating (so Iโ€™m never starving my body or getting too full) and I enjoy cocktails daily so I never feel deprived of what I want (margaritas!!).


I finally found true happiness and self-love but that happened to come about when I found my ๐™ฅ๐™๐™ฎ๐™จ๐™ž๐™˜๐™–๐™ก ideal. I know now that I still use fat-phobic language that can be triggering to those still in the struggle. Iโ€™m grateful that this was brought to my attention because itโ€™s the last thing that I would want to do. When I talk about how โ€œby lifting heavy and eating more often, I finally lost the weight,โ€ I am making weight loss the goal. I do realize that a lot of the women that I encourage to live with balance are frustrated that they arenโ€™t losing weight (and my tips ๐™˜๐™–๐™ฃ help you with that!) but weight loss should not be the ultimate goal. That goal should be truly loving yourself at any size. . . and I admit that Iโ€™m not there yet.

I will continue to live my healthy lifestyle of balance and work to inspire other women to find balance in their own lives. Balance ๐™ฌ๐™ค๐™ง๐™ ๐™จ for me. I am truly happy in my physical body but I still have a long way to go, mentally, and Iโ€™m owning that. In order to truly heal, Iโ€™ve learned that I need to find self-love at ๐™–๐™ฃ๐™ฎ size. No matter what.

The journey continues. . . will you join me on it?

๐Ÿ“ธ: @brian_j._silver_mswwc

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